Can't stop thinking about you....

I see a beautiful sky, or a storm rolling in, and I think of the times we spent watching them, admiring them, together. I see the birds flying past or landing in my yard and remember when you took me to see one special bird, the first time I'd seen one. Something happens, whether good, bad or indifferent, and I pick up the phone to call you. Then I remember. You don't care. I go to the harbor and something always reminds me of you. I can't go on that beautiful path without crying. Nights are the worst. I lay in bed, trying to sleep, and feel you next to me. I reach out and actually FEEL you there, feel your chest, the rise and fall of your breath. I feel you gently scratching my arm and I smile. I turn to look, and you aren't there. It's killing me.